♥ Habibty ♥

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem.

Today got me thinking alot. Here I am watching my habibty's future fall into place alhamdulillah. Makes me feel all grown up and kinda old already...lol. Spending most of our time together, making the best of those times together, missing each other soo dearly when we are apart (not even distance can keep us apart alhamdulillah), all those memories make me feel as if i've spent soooo much time in this dunya. Today, i'm soo happy that her dreams are shaping into reality. I feel as if her joy is my joy and her sorrow is mine too.It hurts me so much to see her hurt and i get excited anytime something good happens to her. I can forfeit my joy just to see her happy (tho we share the same joy :D ). Her happiness just brings me peace.

she has always found a way to make me feel special in d midst of all difficulties and always brings a smile on my face whenever I feel down. Words can't describe the height of love I have for her solely for the sake of the One who brought us together, Allah

Now that she has almost come to the end of "the most difficult task", I pray that Allah sees her through. Most of all, I pray that Allah keeps us together in this dunya and reunites us in the akhira in shaa Allah... Ameeeeeeen!

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Fulfilling Day/eid mubarak

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem
For now, today has been d best day i've ever had in this school. Alhamdulillah! what can I say?! the test went well. Just awaiting the test scores now. insha Allah khair (good). After the test, I and my friend went to visit our habibty ukhti (beloved sister) , her twin sister and her parents before they go back home. masha Allah! It was a typical sisters get together with friends, we muslimahs just having the tym ov our lives. We all applied henna on our hands after enjoying the lovely biryani our dearest mother prepared for us. It was loadz of fun. I really loved the eid spirit in the atmosphere. They were the warmest parents i've met in this country so far. They kept telling us stories and they made us feel perfectly at home (may Allah reward them abundantly, Ameen). Basically, we had a blessed tym together alhamdulillah! May Allah strengthen the bond of sisterhood between us, ameen!

Looking forward to eid tomorrow insha Allah! though it's not going to be lyk the eid at home, it's going to be a gud 1 insha Allah. wanna use this medium to wish u all a blessed Eidul adha

Have a blessed Eid insha Allah! EID MUBARAK!!!

Freaked Out!!!

Yesterday, the weirdest thing happened while I was in school. Apparently, I was there through out the day. I was supposedly studying 4 d test I had today but i spent most of the tym hosting my guest {my very good friend's twin sister) who came over to visit her sis. I had to stay with her 'cos I couldn't live her unattended to. So basically most ov my day was spent keeping her company tho it was fun. When she finally went home, I decided to study a bit before going home and it was really late at that tym. When I got home, I met my house mate who was in the kitchen at that tym. We spoke freely as she prepared dinner. shortly after, she asked me if i knew what I did wrong. I got confused at this point and in my confusion i asked her what happened. She then told me I left the gas on. I could clearly remember that i didn't go into the kitchen that day so I tld her I wasn't the one. At this point, we both got freaked out. She then told me everything that she saw when she came back from school. As soon as she got home, she noticed that the door mat in our kitchen was infront of the bathroom door and apparently, someone cleaned our fridge (cos it had loadza ice in it). So it was obvious that someone came into our house while we were away. Even before she finished the narration my heart started racing. To be honest I was extremely scared. We thought of the only person that could have access to our house; the landlord, but we figured he couldn't be the one 'cos he probably wouldn't leave the gas on nor clean the fridge, and we assumed he had no other keys with him. I was so scared I kept hearing noises in my head...lol. ps: i did remember to make du'a. I initially didn't intend to sleep but 'cos i was scared I couldn't stay awake alone so I just decided to sleep.

So today, I stayed at home before my test while my house mate went for her lectures. When she got back, she also came back with news. She told me she called the landlord to report what happened to him but to her surprise...... he said he was the one. I felt as if all my energy had been drained at that instant..lol. I actually slept with fear not knowing it was just the landlord. subhanallah! But alhamdulillah it turned out to be him, if not that would have been a different story entirely. ALHAMDULILLAH!

♥ True Hospitality ♥

Some hours ago, I was having really tough time trina study. I just couldn't find the interest to study within me. As I stared at my book aimlessly, my very sweet Arabian friend showed up. She sat down beside me and we started discussing about studies. Afterwards she offered that we study together. For me, that was a very great relieve. We studied together and she made sure I understood every single word she was saying and in between we just discussed about school. I got to know she lives really close to where I live so when it was time for salaat(prayer), she said she preferred going home to pray then I decided to accompany her just to see where she lives then i'd go home too. So it was decided. She'll go home and since we live very close to each other i'd also go home after seeing the way to her home. On our way, we couldn't help but to admire the beauty of autumn. I just had to take a picture but couldn't get a clear view 'cos we were walking and it was getting darker.

When we got to the point where we were to part ways (right in front of their house), I bid her goodbye but she refused. She insisted that I come into the house so that we pray together then we'd come back to school together. since I couldn't refuse, I just had to go with her.

Masha Allah, the atmosphere in the house was very welcoming and her family was a very pleasant one ^_^ . I hesitated before going into the house 'cos I didn't know what to expect, but when I got in, I was welcomed warmly. She lead me to her room and after the salaat, she insisted that I should eat something before going back. I tried my best to refuse but all to no avail, so i was served with a very tasty arabian food masha Allah! I ate to my fill and she kept insisting that I ate more food but this time around I refused 'cos I wanted to be able to walk back to school without dragging my full stomach along...lol. So it was settled. When it was time to go, I bid her very wonderful family goodbye and thanked them for their hospitality. Got back to school and studied a little more.

I had a really gr8 time with them and I actually enjoyed studying today alhamdulillah :D Anyhoo I really hope i'm gonna enjoy studying like this most ov the tym insha Allah.

Tym to get back to my studying..... ♥ ♥ ♥

For You Big Brother... with love (Sadiq)

Dear brother, today marks the day you were born to this world due to the grace of Almighty Allah. Only now u are grown into a man masha Allah! I remember when we were all younger. we used to play in the sand together, play pretend and play hide and seek together. Those days our young minds had nothing to worry about. Being the only girl then, I played all the possible guy games with u all, ranging from climbing trees and beyond. I know these might not be memories you would like to remember but to me, they are fond memories I would love to hold on to for as long as I live. memories of pure innocence. You guys were always full of jokes and you always made the times we spent together magical. Today, we are all grown up and our journeys may be different, but always remember that you are 1 of my best big brothers as I love you all equally. Our journeys may be different but we are all threading a path to our eternal abode. May Allah Re-unite us in Al-jannatul firdaus where we all would be happy to meet each other. But before then, may Allah continue to bless you and reward you abundantly for your good and forgive you for your bad. And may Allah have mercy on us all, ameen!
Your little sister :)

My life's update :)

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem
It has been approximately two months now since I left home for school to study medicine and approximately two months since I updated my blog. I always knew that medicine wasn't an easy thing to do but I never expected to feel stressed right from the beginning of my studies. I suddenly feel as if time is just sooo fast. before you know it, a week is gone, then two weeks, then it's test week. It's lyk soo surprising (but expected tho). Alhamdulillah tho, the city is peaceful most of the time. really conducive for reading and it's also a very beautiful place. It's the ideal city for medical students.

I keep reminding myself that this is just the beginning so I don't feel i'm stressed yet. But I don't know if that really helps..loq. The tests i'm having now is the second set of tests iv'e had since I came to this place, and still have to prepare for two other sets of tests before the end of semester exams. Hopefully if I get an average of 75% in three of my tests and a minimum pass i would be exempted from the final exams (which no person in his right senses would wish to experience 'cos it's sooo hard). I pray to Allah that I and every other person studying should pass through this studies successfully. For now, i'm trying to discard my high school attitude of being lazy to study and trying to become a more serious student. it's really very important at this point in time. Alhamdulillah, i'm adapting real well to the new environment. The best part of it is that the islamic community in the school is fast growing so that makes me feel at home. I love the way we muslims act as one big united family every where we meet. It is just so heart warming. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah for making me a muslim. Being away from home has made me realize a lot of things that I have ignored times without number. I have no regrets only a million reasons to thank Allah! Alhamdulillah :)

A Memorable Journey

    Just yesterday, my mum suggested that I go visit my relations (through my dad) and bid them farewell before going to school. At first i refused 'cos I couldn't imagine how it would be visiting them all alone but then I was reminded of the importance of keeping family ties so I finally agreed. That's how the journey began. I was supposed to go visit my dad's elder sister first but on arrival, we discovered she wasn't home. Fortunately, she was at my cousins place and that was our next destination. I arived at my favourite cousins house and was warmly welcomed alhamdulillah. I met my father's sister (his mother) and his wife (who is expecting....alhamdulillah ) and we all chatted easily. They congratulated me 'cos of my results and he teased me saying, "it seems you have taken after me and Nma (my elder brother)"...lol. I was introduced to my cousin (whom I never knew existed). I felt awkward for not knowing my cousin but actually felt glad getting to know him.
     It was almost time for me to visit some more relatives when my cousin came to meet me in the living room. He began saying, " I know this might make you emotional but I just have to say it. You know, I had an advantage over you all staying with daddy because I was much older than you when he died." I felt a hot lump form in my throat  but I tried to controll my tears 'cos I didn't want to be betrayed by my emotions. That worked preety well for me so I simply smiled and nodded. He continued, " During those days, there was something daddy always told me. I didn't take it seriously those days but only now do I realise  the importance." At this point I was eager to hear what my dad usually told him so I listened attentively. " he used to tell me these three things; be contented, be hardworking and be prayerful." He said when daddy gave him those advices, he didn't take it seriously though he practised it anyway. But now he realises that they are the keys to living. It has really gone a long way in making him what he is today alhamdulillah. He also gave me examples of those attributes in my father. Indeed daddy was a very patient and hard working man who always considered Allah first in all his affairs alhamdulillah. ( May Allah have mercy on his soul.. Ameen!) He also told me that before I know it, the seven years i'm going to spend studying medicine would pass by before I know it 'cos the thing with life is just to start. before u knw it u r done. gr8 words 4rm a gr8 cousin <3. He told me never to forget that advice 'cos it's going to help me a lot. ( btw i'm not planning to 4get such a great advice in my entire life insha Allah)
    The tym was due for me to go and visit other relatives and I was all set, with words of wisdom carved deep into my heart. I arrived at my uncles place and was warmly welcomed as usual. A bond was formed between me and my little niece (my cousin's daughter). For the very first time she spoke to me and we played together, only that she spoke to me in our native language. Though I could understand few words I felt soo left out 'cos even my little niece could speak fluently. Well, time flew past and it was time for me to return home. We returned to my cousin's place where my mum came to pick me up and we began the journey back home. All I could think of was my dad and how much I missed him. My mum brought up jokes that made me even hurt the more but I tried to strain a faint smile. I finally lightened up a bit and we chatted freely with the driver. I read 'From somalia with love' by Na'ima B. Robert through out the journey but couldn't help the drop of tear that almost rolled down my cheek. I wiped it before it was noticed....lol. It started getting darker so I dropped the book and adjusted to a more comfortable position. I only woke up when the car halted infront of the gate to our home. Alhamdulillah.... There is no place like home.
   This journey was a life altering one and i'm glad it took place :)   (31/08/2011)

Another Eid

    Alhamdulillah! It's eid again. just like a friend of mine told me, " you've seen it all. From d count down 2 ramadan, to fasting itself, to taraweeh and tahajjud, to the tailor crisis and to the anxiety of eid  then finally eid". lol. It has really been a memorable journey but it really amazes me how fast ramadan flew past. i kinda wanted it to last a bit longer :( but alhamdulillah we withnessed it to it's end. May Allah grant us the opportunity to withness many more ramadans and eids and may He accept it from us as an act of ibadah, ameen.
    Well, just as i expected, most of my day today was spent in working and attending to guests. It's hard to believe that i'm actually preparing to move into a bigger world. i have no idea how colledge is going to be and I have just two more days to get prepared before my final depature from home :( .All i can do is to hope and pray for the best insha Allah. I knw I would have to read "like no man's business" if i really want to be a successful medical doctor insha Allah.
     I have alot of things going through my mind. If only thinking could make one's head swell, mine would have exploaded as a result of excess swelling..lol (no kidding). My emotions are trying to betray me. feeling sobber instead of being grateful to Allah for all His blessings. O Allah forgive us all. O well, alhamdulillah, i am alive today and have every right to be grateful to Allah for giving me the opportunity to withness the end of this day. Not everyone who slept yesterday woke up to the fresh air of today and not everyone who woke up to the fresh air of today lived to see the sun set. No one knows their time of departure from this temporary abode so we all have to spend the time we have in Allah's remembrance before it becomes too late. Fi amanillah :)