My Beautiful Sister

I love how you have the right words to say every time I need them the most.

I love how u bring a smile to my face every time I'm feeling down. 

I love how your presence and your thoughts always bring joy to my heart, and I love how it makes me forget everything unpleasant related to life.

Perhaps you might be surprised even it be in the slightest of ways, how all this happened within a short period of time.

But in you is a blessing specially from Allah. The ability to steal hearts even without knowing.

Your being in itself is one inspiring and I pray that Allah keeps this soul of yours beautiful as always and even more beautiful as time goes by :)

I love you for the sake of Allah my beautiful sister <3

Drifting Away

Busmillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem.

You are my friend. My sister even. Yet as much as I love you, and as much as I miss you, I have chosen to let you find your way. You might think that's selfish, but it is that I want the best for you. For it is in those moments of silence that one is alone with Allah, that we are able to reconnect the bond between ourselves and our Lord. The bond between us might be (or might have been) strong, but who am I to keep you away from your Lord? I care about you and that's why I want you to find your way back to Him. I want you to be of His closest servants.

But then, when you need me, I would be waiting by the sidelines, ever willing to help you and give you comfort to the ability Allah has bestowed upon me.

My Only Sister (As you would call me)

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem.

My Dear beloved,

I made a promise to you many years before, in my innocence. I remember vividly. It was the year you were born and our aunt was taking a bath for you. That time, she thought me this song to sing to you : "Ameenatu baby... you are my sister.... I will never leave you... you are my sister." I remember how shy I was to sing those words to you in her presence (I know, silly) even though you were just a baby.

Now, many years after, you've stolen my heart by your mere existence. Your un-explainable sweetness always leaving me without words. You have blossomed, into a sweet scenting beautiful flower, and you have given me many reasons to smile and thank Allah for your very existence.

So now, years after that incident, I stand firm on the ground, your love firmly rooted in my heart, willing to stand by you for as long as Allah decides, and hoping to be your guide through this journey called life. I pray that Allah keeps you steadfast on this beautiful deen, grant you patience and piety and finally reunite us all in Jannah.

Love,
Your only sister.

I Am Complete

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem.


There was a time I thought I needed a companion to complete me. I felt incomplete, as if a part of me was missing. For some reason I thought I needed that companion to make me whole. You know what that can lead to? I was left feeling I needed "a person" to make me happy. I thought my happiness would be incomplete without "that" person. and for every moment I thought that, I suffered. I felt lonely, (maybe even depressed). It took a while, but perhaps Allah, the almighty, The Most wise wanted me to learn the hard way (Since that's how most lessons I learn tend to stick longer), and I learnt.

It was a phase, But I did learn, that when you turn to a person or a material to give you happiness, that might be short lived but all it would cause you is pain.

I did learn, that nothing can ever make you feel complete if you do not have Allah, and that even when you have not a single thing or person in this world, once you have Allah, you are whole (with even extra parts...hehe). You have everything you ever needed & would ever need and more. You have a Lord who is most merciful, who never ever ever turns away from you when you call out to Him, humbled before Him. You have a master, who is willing and telling you that He would give you anything that you wish to have, if that's what is best for you, as long as you JUST ask. Subhanallah!  Allah says in the Qur'an:

"And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided."

You have a creator who guides you despite the amount of times you have sinned and and disobeyed Him right IN FRONT of Him. How many humans would stick around you when you do what doesn't please them?! Exactly. I thought so as well. Almost none.  (to mention but a few). So which of the favours of our Lord shall we deny?

Alhamdulillah. Then I had my priorities mixed up. I had placed my dependence in the absolutely wrong place and it only caused me pain. But now, alhamdulillah, now I feel whole. And you know what happens when finally you turn to Allah? When you depend on Him alone? When you strive ( even though you might continuously fall at some point) to do only what pleases Allah and stay away from what displeases Him? You find peace. The kind of peace that calms your whole being; Your mind, body and soul. And once you taste that sweetness of being aware of Allah, it becomes all you would want to have, and it would  disturb you greatly when you are away from it.

So now, I see marriage, not for what I saw it before. Marriage to be sought for the pleasure of Allah, to complete half of one's religion, and to protect oneself from falling into "major sin". Even though, Allah, out of His infinite mercy, has placed a lot of bonuses in marriage. A companion and a friend, mutual love between spouses, off-springs that would be the coolness of one's eyes (and much much more), alhamdulillah. Indeed, Allah does spread His signs around for those who reflect.

"And among His Signs is that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He put love and mercy between your hearts. Verily in that are Signs for those who reflect." [Sûrah Rûm: 21]"

I know however, that nothing would stop me from departing from this world without it. But then again, if one strives to please Allah in this life, Allah would grant them much much more blessings and rewards than one can ever imagine in Jannah, and everything you would ever want, would be at your disposal. If you can think of it, then you can get it. Glory be to Allah for the blessings of Islam.

" No human can find happiness in any place except in what they are naturally inclined to;  In worshipping Allah."

Bint Salih's Diary

Bismillahir-Rahmanir-Raheem.

"Her diary, her life's companion. One she turns to, to share her life's experiences. Sometimes she thinks she doesn't need it anymore, but then, one always turns to their first true humble companion. She finally figured that no matter how long she stays away from it, she would always find her way back to it"

Funny how I started this blog :) (not literally funny...but yeah). Advice from a very supporting sibling, crazy interest in writing (and reading), and veeeery few ideas up my sleeves. That was all...at first. I wrote a couple of stuff the first few months, then I left...for reasons known to me. But I found my way back. I guess 'cos..... well never mind. Anyway I continued for a couple more, then I left (again...haha!) But this time, I thought I left for good. Wanted to start all over. New Blog , new intentions and all. Alhamdulillah, all that went as planned. There were times i felt like writing into this blog, but then, I thought it would be a lot trying to handle two blogs with med. school in between. I was close to deleting the blog but then I decided to leave it & not write in it instead.

But I guess that was for a reason. As always, now I find my way back here again, and I guess this time I would be here longer, Except if The Owner of my soul decides it's time for me to return. Till then, this lady would be sharing her thoughts in shaa Allah, to some or to myself :)